Kailash always
believed that life is the greatest gift we are bestowed with and time – the greatest
of the greatest gift that we can gift each other. Generally, for any events, be
it big or small, he would make sure that he spent time with family and loved
ones. When I met my friend who eventually was his college senior too, I was
glad to know more about the other side of him – the naughty, the responsible
and the crazier side of him. He was gentle to his friends. He had fun and made everyone
around him, smile. He was caring to mostly all of them. His senior told, “Kailash
ensured that I ate properly even when I am sick.”
It’s happiness in remembering him the way he
would have wanted everyone to remember. It is like holding on to the memories
and the love that he shared with everyone. Because of the love that he shared
with everyone around him so personally, grieving for him came as an optional
while celebrating his life became a mandate.
For siblings
like us who never shared stuffs tagging each other, online in any media or any
whatsapp, I feel it to be very odd to hear stories or see posts of brothers and
sisters. However, I was sad about it. For long time I was even not in his
friends’ list of face book or orkut. But, in reality, we fought crazily with
each other and yet we loved each other unconditionally. It reminded me of the
strong bond that we shared. I kept wishing him on his birthdays, when he passed and all other events, though he dint like it. He would be like, "When I am just a phone call away, why do you want to tell the whole world your wishes but not me?" I stopped at one point not knowing that he would not be physically around to read it and call me to scold!
The irony is, I
began to write memoirs, only two years later, coz even then I am not sure if I
would be able to write anything about him other than monotonous pain of missing
him. But, I was wrong then.
It has been a
year since
I started
celebrating his life publicly,
I stared to
tell tales about him to people who knew or not him,
I realized
that the inevitable pain can be transformed into bliss by sharing joyous
moments,
I realized
that he shall be always the guiding force to strive through the strife!
