Memoies On (the) line . . . !

Kailash always believed that life is the greatest gift we are bestowed with and time – the greatest of the greatest gift that we can gift each other. Generally, for any events, be it big or small, he would make sure that he spent time with family and loved ones. When I met my friend who eventually was his college senior too, I was glad to know more about the other side of him – the naughty, the responsible and the crazier side of him. He was gentle to his friends. He had fun and made everyone around him, smile. He was caring to mostly all of them. His senior told, “Kailash ensured that I ate properly even when I am sick.”

 It’s happiness in remembering him the way he would have wanted everyone to remember. It is like holding on to the memories and the love that he shared with everyone. Because of the love that he shared with everyone around him so personally, grieving for him came as an optional while celebrating his life became a mandate. 

For siblings like us who never shared stuffs tagging each other, online in any media or any whatsapp, I feel it to be very odd to hear stories or see posts of brothers and sisters. However, I was sad about it. For long time I was even not in his friends’ list of face book or orkut. But, in reality, we fought crazily with each other and yet we loved each other unconditionally. It reminded me of the strong bond that we shared. I kept wishing him on his birthdays, when he passed and all other events, though he dint like it. He would be like, "When I am just a phone call away, why do you want to tell the whole world your wishes but not me?" I stopped at one point not knowing that he would not be physically around to read it and call me to scold!

The irony is, I began to write memoirs, only two years later, coz even then I am not sure if I would be able to write anything about him other than monotonous pain of missing him. But, I was wrong then.

It has been a year since

I started celebrating his life publicly,

I stared to tell tales about him to people who knew or not him,

I realized that the inevitable pain can be transformed into bliss by sharing joyous moments,

I realized that he shall be always the guiding force to strive through the strife!